Now it is Christmas day and I am mesh free and ready to get started with my real recovery. I know that I was in a recovery phase before from the first surgery, but with all the pain and stress of that mesh, it felt as though I was just waiting for another surgery rather than feeling like I was actually recovering.
The nausea I had been dealing with since the first surgery was finally starting to decrease. This nausea stemmed from the amount of extra fluid I had in my head causing me to always feel like I was on a boat. It was a weird feeling and not one that I would wish on anyone. I had basically just gotten used to vomiting at least once nearly every day. More if I tried to move around and do anything. You have never vomited until you do it with sutures in your head!! OUCH! Coughing, yawning, and sneezing take on new meaning as well. The only thing that worked was the nausea patch. I started having more side effects than I wanted from the patch though, so I wasn't able to wear it as much as I would have liked. The extra fluid was left in when they had to pull the drain they had put in to remove it when I had the stroke after my first surgery. Part of the reason I had that brain bleed was because the drain was working too well! So, I knew it would just take time for the fluid to be reabsorbed. It is getting better every day and now I hardly notice it. So, that part is taken care of. SO, now I am mesh free and nausea free!
With all that excitement, I start to over-do it! I over work myself at physical therapy and just in life at home and end up tiring myself out again. Now, I have caught this virus that is going around town and my nose is running, my throat is killing me, I am coughing, and just have that feeling that I have been hit by a truck! Not what I needed!
So, from this point on, I have promised myself and my husband to start taking everything more slowly. Rushing it only made me go backwards! So, I have decided that ANY forward motion is better than nothing and I am going to tell that new motto to myself a million times a day until I listen to myself. I have to!
I hope that you will join me in my journey to get back to my old self. I need to get my butt back in the saddle on my horse (who misses me) and in life. I will keep this journal/blog going so that it keeps me honest and on track. Our goal: to be riding and running and loving life again but to get there at a slow and steady pace!!
Thank you for any comments and support. Wish me luck!! And, anyone out there who may have to undergo this or a similar surgery, I welcome your questions and suggestions.
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